My passion around self-growth, vulnerability, and relational curiosity go beyond the role of therapist/client. I am the therapist I am because of my lived experience, and I deeply believe in doing the work myself--- so much so that I wrote this symbolic memoir as a means to process how Disorganized Attachment has shown up in my life: having poor boundaries, participating in toxic relationship dynamics, and ultimately trying to gain the sight of my mother through these painful, often one-sided experiences. I depict the heartbreaking and confusing experience of being in an abusive relationship with a Narcissist to help those identify emotional abuse they may currently be suffering, but are likely being gaslit about. I also wanted to illustrate what real time processing looks like for those new at it, and embody the values I want for the world-- honest expressions that aren't filtered because that's real, and no one is impervious to their environmental messaging; not even a therapist who should "know better".

I challenge the conditioned response and internalized shame of experiencing and expressing contrary emotions, feelings, and needs, while normalizing the messy human experience. I delve into how insecure attachment styles form and continue to impact adults throughout their lives, and share my story through the lens of six major emotions, poetry, prose, short stories, and personal essays to create an intentional journey for the reader. There is perspective shared and validation given for all parties involved in these dynamics, which allows for empathy, acceptance, and release if necessary. 

Self-reflect; examine your beliefs, your life approach, and how you show up for yourself and others. I end the book with reflective questions in the final chapter as well as breaks in between chapters that encourage and guide you in processing, absorbing, and understanding your reading experience. In the end, my hope is increased emotional attunement, liberation from societal and familial pressures and expectations, awareness, inspiration to express feelings, an ability to identify and set boundaries, choose healthy relationships, make peace with your past, and practice self-compassion as I model throughout the book.

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